I read Rob's post...on who you truly are, deep down inside...It really made me think...I mean...about who I am (duh)...I came to the conclusion that who I am in real life isn't all that bad....
But who I am in LiveJournal....
I feel safe to post my fears and insecurities on LiveJournal...which maybe I shouldn't do...but in many people's eyes, that makes me a prissy whiny bitch.
Which I really do not consider myself to be...
I can't change people's opinions of me.
Jessica Smith is a real person. She really is my girlfriend. The reason you've never met her? I don't feel I have to introduce her to you all. Vince has indeed met her.
Honestly, I don't care if you all think she's real or not. But I know she is...which honestly, is all that matters, because I don't care what others think of me. I decided that a long time ago, when I was bullied and teased. Which, again, vicious cycle, Steve is now becoming a bully to me. Fuck him, I don't care.
Anyway...I cannot change who I am on LiveJournal, as I feel it is a safe place to post my insecurities and shit.
To which I have said before, if you don't like reading it, simply surf to another site.
This journal will be deleted at midnight tonite, Wednesday August 6th.
I can't stand all the shit that happens simply because of this public forum...my life was a lot better when I had no LiveJournal.
i don't know what's worth fighting for / or why i had to scream / i don't know why i instigate / and say what i don't mean / i don't know how i got this way / i know it's not alright / so i'm breaking the habit / i'm breaking the habit / tonite.